campaign-2016When the Election Night started, I said jokingly that if Trump won, I would finally know how half of the country felt when waking up to the big mistake their country made a couple months ago. As the night progressed, the joke turned into a horrible reality.

Being an Asian female immigrant, I have been one of those fewer folks that are very optimistic about the social issues in America. I have always believed that those racist, sexist, and anti-immigration comments I heard in the media just happened to be from a couple loud, absurd noises. Being a manager in a company where the leadership is majority white and blending perfectly in, I was sometimes skeptical about the disadvantages of my skin color in the workforce, and even have gone as far to explain to the older generations in the Asian community that “America has made huge progress in racial discrimination.”

But have we?

Throughout the course of the Election Night, I saw more Clinton’s supporters expressing their shock and disbeliefs. Setting the disappointment aside, many pondered about what could have went wrong. Some political analysts even reflected on whether the Clinton’s campaigning should have spent more effort on targeting the white working class voters instead.

Still, no one attempted to address the elephant in the room—Trump might have connected with the racist and sexist beliefs buried deep down in more than half of the voters of the country, which paved for his path to the White House.

The remaining question then is, how is the other half of the country supposed to look pass this election and get on with their lives, knowing that half of the country is willing to tolerant a racist and sexist leader? As always, it will be easier for white men to move on than the rest of the country. Four years passes by and this election will become one of the ridiculous things to laugh about.

But for the non-whites, women, and LGBTs out there, moving on first involves facing the scary truth that who they are is exactly what put them in disadvantages in America. Then, as they drown in disappointment, they hold onto their strong communities and search for the glimpse of hope that their country may have to offer.

And for some, they may never be able to move past the scars this election has left them.